excuse-less

in an effort to be radically honest with myself, i have not blogged in two months because of  a will power/procrastination combo. my favorite. also, per usual for my life, i'm afraid of setting expectations too high and failing to reach any of my goals. aka, if i don't make a plan, i can't fail. yeah. precisely what i'm trying to eradicate from my life...

me and bub are getting ready for our sunday routine. i'll be back to finish later.

crafts!

I want to craft more. I've collected papers, ribbons, stamps, paint, fabric, etc over the last few months, and I've completed a few projects, but I don't do it as consistently as I want to. Crafting is like reading for me, or swimming or eating dark chocolate--a wonderful way to release tension and center myself. However, it has the potential to be like pretty much everything else in my life - stressful. Especially if I craft an idea and then have difficulty finding supplies or materials or something takes longer than I anticipated. Basically, I'm learning that I have the capacity to turn even the most delightful situations into flaming balls of stress. BLAH! It's almost as though I'm improperly wired for relaxation and go-with-the-flowness. No more, I say!

I made a ribbon board (I don't have pictures yet, but I ripped off this idea). I love it. I used a fabulous Amy Butler fabric (i adore her fabrics!) and made my own buttons. Consequently, I've become obsessed with making my own fabric buttons. silly silly silly.

I'm committed to allowing myself more craft time when I feel it necessary. I'm halfway through a second ribbon board, so when I finish I'll post both pictures. Hooray!

xoxo

we all arrive...

I wanted to start this blog as a way of grounding my life. of giving weight and thought to my dreams, my hopes, my work. I process things best out loud. I'm "in transition" as my mother puts it. I've recently graduated college with a semi-useful (in the immediate economic sense) degree in a faltering economy. I am facing grad school, which both scares and excites me. I am planning to marry my partner of nearly 4 years now in the sort of near future. I yearn for financial independence and for meaningful professional work. I feel and think more things, more deeply than I thought I would at this stage in my life. I don't feel carefree and on top of the world. I feel rushed and bruised under the weight of it. But, right now, I think that's a good thing.

I want so much for my life. I want to do and be things that feel improbable to me now, but I don't want to quit before I've even started. I hope this blog, in some small way, will help me identify and overcome any self-inflicted impediments. I don't need to accomplish anything in one fell swoop. Some goals are bigger than others, some will require repetition and sustenance, but I hope to keep reminding myself...little by little. we will arrive.

xo
kate